Tuesday, March 16, 2010


Patience can be so difficult when we want. And we're human so we of course want.

I want everything to begin. I want to start my life with Bob. I want to have the direction I need to be the best I can in whatever job I am intended to do. I want to strengthen my bond with the Lord. I want to be a woman that people look up to and I am proud of. I want to be a supportive Mom raising Godly children. I want to be an outstanding wife. I want to be active and organized. I want a home of my own to decorate. I want to have it together. I want to feel complete.

I feel this is a more personal post than most I write, but its late at night and I'm more honest and open when I'm tired. Part of my says, "Silly Katie, life has begun, enjoy the ride." Another part of me says, "In due time." And then there's the child in me stomping her feet and saying "I've been patient, I want it now!"

Does anyone else suffer with this? Suffer with these human imperfections and feelings of being unsettled and restless? In Church on Sunday I felt like God was saying "Follow me and life will happen beautifully", and by Monday night I'm worried and too too human.

I read so many tremendous blogs of great Christian women who are living their lives and following God's will and it makes me so excited for the future. Some how I need to bring myself back down to where I am now and accept it's for a reason.

'To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under the sun. A time to be born and a time to die; a time to plant and a time to pluck up that which is planted; a time to kill and a time to heal ... a time to weep and a time to laugh; a time to mourn and a time to dance ... a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing; a time to lose and a time to seek; a time to rend and a time to sew; a time to keep silent and a time to speak; a time to love and a time to hate; a time for war and a time for peace."- Ecclesiastes 3:1-8


  1. I definitely understand and know exactly where you have been. It is SO HARD to trust the Lord and His plan…I’m fighting with this every day. Kaz and I have had some really amazing things happen even this week things that we have worrying about and the Lord did something so small just to show us that He is in control. I’m praying so hard for you right now…..Hang in there friend. I’m believing this verse with you for everything has a season…. Have a great Tuesday!

  2. thanks for being open and sharing your heart. it's funny because i'm a wife and mother (both of which i longed to be my whole life) but yet, these things don't fill me or make me feel complete. pure contentment is only found in the Lord. it's easy to think that once we have what we want, then, at that point, we'll really feel fulfilled. i'm learning that i can only look to Christ for fulfillment. i pray that the Lord will grant you the desires of your heart! and in due time, He most certainly will! you don't have to wait for all your wants to come true though to feel fulfilled. i learned that the hard way... and am still learning that!

  3. I hear ya loud and clear, Katie! Thanks for sharing...I battle/struggle with this from time to time as well. It's a normal part of life and it's not necessarily all bad, but for me, when things get out of balance, that's when I get in trouble and become anxious, worried, frustrated, etc. etc. (Whew...long sentence!!!)

    God has a plan for YOU and the thing about it is that it is in the 'NOW'...I believe that sometimes we all get that mindset that life will begin "When_______." (Fill in the Blank - Get married, have children, get a house, etc. etc)...

    I try to focus on what I have right now...it's hard and I don't always do it...I think we all struggle with it...but we need to be reminded that God is working in the 'NOW' so we don't miss out. Praying for you, my friend...

    This verse pretty much sums it up...Life is a 'process' & we'll never arrive until we are with Jesus. (not meant to discourage, but encourage...) :)

    God began doing a good work in you, and I am sure he will continue it until it is finished when Jesus Christ comes again. Philippians 1:6



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